I wrote the below blog post about a month ago. I didn’t publish it because all it is really is an unjustified self-pity, complain-o-gram.
Sunday, after church, I changed my mind about it. God always finds a way to make us hear the words we need to hear and this Sunday He didn’t disappoint. Dean has been preaching an awesome series called We’re Just Not that Into You [You = God], where we’ve been exploring how the way we act matches up [or doesn’t] to what we claim to believe. It really has been an incredible series. If you want to check it, click here.
This past Sunday, Dean used scripture from Ephesians and Galatians during his sermon, but it was the Psalm he threw in there that made me feel like my completely unwarranted despair had come full circle and ended.
This was the blog post you didn’t get to read:
Something I am struggling with:
I feel like the spark is gone from my life. Maybe not gone as in forever, but certainly taking a break; hiding. Every day just blurs into the next; uneventful, unmemorable. I am just SO bored. Woe is me, I know. I sound like the saddest girl in the whole wide world with no legit reason to be. I’m not sad- just bored. Annoyed with the monotnousness of life right now. I need to take my own advice.
As a Christian, I am called to be a light amongst others; to let Christ’s light shine through me. How am I supposed to do that when I feel like a low-watt light bulb with a sketchy electrical connection fighting to stay lit? (I actually know the answer to that question…)
Matthew 5:14-16 tells me I am the light of the world.
14“You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
I know I better stop sulking before I get a curveball of excitement I can’t handle.
That was it, that was the post. Lame, right?
Here is the Psalm that gave me my much needed snap the heck out of it awakening:
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
The first two lines just sound like me talking to me. And I’m grateful for them. If you think you need a healthy dose of get with the program-ness, you might want to watch below.
[thanks heathy for the title]